One day he wanted to save us money and replace the brakes on the truck. He asked a friend for advice, bought the brakes and installed them. After a while he came and said,“ I think I did it. Now all I need is for you to come and pump the brakes.” I dutifully pumped, pumped & pumped some more. But the brakes still wouldn’t work. It broke my heart to watch my husband walk away, with his shoulders decidedly slumped. A few hours later, after he got even more advice, he asked me to pump again. I got in the truck and I pumped and pumped away but they still wouldn’t work. “Keep going!” he cried as he lay under the truck. So I did. Suddenly the truck lurched forward, and Mark leapt up with a frantic look on his face. Then the light dawned….”Sacha, you were pumping the clutch this whole time!” Apparently Mark isn’t the only one who isn’t mechanical.
When people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I did not say that I wanted to be able to make people laugh because of my blondeness. No, it’s been my lifelong dream to be the Proverbs 31 woman - a perfect mom with homemade cookies on the counter at all times with an immaculate home without a speck of dust; being a pastor’s wife that brings world peace or at least church peace; and the wife that meets my husband’s every whim. Let’s just say… it’s not happening.
The Proverbs 31 woman has inspired dread in many of us. We read through this impossible list of perfection and wonder how can we ever measure up? Her lamp never goes out, but she awakens while it is still dark? We become so overwhelmed with her daunting list of accomplishments that we miss the message. What truly brings her praise at the city gate is that she is a woman that fears the Lord.
James 2:1a says “We all stumble in many ways.” We all have our ‘moments’, we are not perfect. But it is how we deal with those mistakes that will define us. Will we wallow in them or confess them? Are we humble enough to realize that we will mess up, but wise enough to surrender to God to be changed?
What stands out to me about the Proverbs 31 woman is that “she can laugh at the days to come”. Instead of being consumed with my past, I want to deal with it & then laugh at the future. But I can only do that when I am in tune with God, sitting before my maker, surrendering my ‘moments’ so that he can change me for his glory.