The worms remind me of myself sometimes. No, I don’t want to live in even more dirt, but sometimes I wrestle with ‘the grass is greener on the other side’ mentality. God will thrill me with an incredible day of ministry, but after I hear about another ministry’s success I can become disheartened. I find myself defining success and beauty by the standards of those around me. I think many of us struggle with the trap of comparing ourselves with others. Let’s face it, the list is endless! Whether it be our waist sizes, our kids, marriages, finances or even our noses! Proverbs 14:30 says, “A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones.” I have seen so many women’s lives destroyed as they are eaten up by jealousy, bitterness and hate, all because they were dissatisfied with what God had given them.
In Genesis 29 we see Rachel as the perfect example of this. She was beautiful and Jacob loved her, but she was miserable because she was barren and Leah was not. Leah didn’t have the looks and was heartbroken that Jacob didn’t love her. Yet as we watch Leah’s names of her children we see her grow in her relationship with God, from Rueben – seen my misery, to Issachar-God has rewarded me and Zebulun - God has given me a precious gift. Leah didn’t have the beauty or the love of her man, but she learned to trust in God her provider.
Recently I read the quote, “If you think the grass is greener on the other side, then water your own lawn.” We need to seek God, staying rooted in his word, so that our hearts can be at peace. Then we can rest in the fact that our imperfections and disappointments are part of what God has planted for us to learn to trust Him. Our lives will never be perfect on earth, that is what heaven is for!